Tired

Yesterday night was chii and shuxin's bday celebration at this Da Chang Jin hotplate steamboat restaurant with a group of former hall 5 friends. Maybe because of the past few days work and things tieing me down lately, I was feeling quite shag and unfocused. Though I was quite happy with my current work and of course, last night celebration, somehow my life seems to be getting difficult to go on. I dun reaali know what is the reason, but somehow it is not the same as it is used to, but it is definitely not because I came out to work already. I just hope everything will go right soon, and (maybe it is too late now) God give me the strength to go on. Actually I wanted to say something last night or do something before, but in the end I failed. I'm failing, or it is just another coward act. Haiz. I think it is gone again. Shujin has been telling me his things, though I wanted to help him, but somehow I cant even help myself, maybe I'm even worse than him. At least he is more good-looking than me. My daughter (chii) wanted most for her birthday is a handsome looking guy to accompany her, and I sincerely hope she can find one. This is really sincere, for those who knows how I feel.