finally i have the time to blog.
finally i had a nice and sufficient amount of sleep.
i didn't really sleep much since thursday night as i went outing with my 'wife' again. 1030 pm to 615 am was the time that we spent travelling from ntu to east coast again. of course there were breaks in between. people might think we spent 4 hrs for each journey on average on each journey. however the 'to' trip was longer. especially on the way i actually fell 3 times. i couldn't believe it. tt's been a long time since i fell from 'her'. the first was near the temple opposite clementi ite and i hurt the lower end of my calf with the pedals. the second one was at the bridge behind zouk and i accidentally knock my tummy with the handle bars when i fell. the worst one was when we were passing along the stretch of clubs at clarke quay. everyone was looking at me. caucasians and especially the ladies. embarassed. bruises were on my thighs and hands, with my 'wife' over me. my new head light which i just installed on 'her' the night before was sacrificed. 10 bucks gone and i had to get a new one. what a night! and it was just the 'to' trip and everyone had to wait for me each time i fell. each time people asked me whether i'm alright, it was not the physical pain that I was experiencing i felt hurt about i just didn't feel good mentally. i didn't want my team to worry about me. after all i'm the oldest among them and should have the ability to take care of myself, especially i'm also the most experienced. maybe it was those things that are haunting me again. really want to get away from them. really really. after all it was a record that we came back from east coast to ntu using around 2 hrs of ride. it could have been shorter with the length of breaks we took in between. that was the most wonderful thing that we achieved for the whole night.
after which i had a interview at gul circle at 1030am, so i didn't really sleep before that and went straight for it after the shagged night. coming back from the interview, i only had 2 and a half hrs of sleep before going to chinatown to work with yongxiang as registration booth for a chicken rice eating competition til 9 pm. after which, we went off to have ktv with elayne and co. honestly speaking, i didn't really much of the session because i felt the tiredness from the cycling lying on me. there were occasions that i nearly fell asleep. i have to apologised for my not so enthusiatic behaviour to them. sorry. the session ended at ard 3 am before i went back with a good nice sleep.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Tired...(physically and mentally)
what a day. or should i say what a night. what a journey. think i had forgotten when was the last time i travelled with that 'wife' of mine. me and her travelled on one of the longest night we had together with each other, and maybe one of the longest journey. after two years of rest, i thought my body could not take it anymore, but the fact is i have been done it. one level up should i say. though it was a relatively quiet night (as it should be), there were a lot of things running through my mind. maybe those were the things that helped me forget the physical exhaustion that i was experiencing. there were times also because of those things, that i nearly fell. lucky i had my 'wife', we were both safe and sound, except my butt hurts, even until now. maybe it was the 'intimate actions' we did the whole night. some said i was too fast and looked so easy throughout the journey, i thought... 'maybe'. maybe i was too on myself. i didn realli focus on others, i should apologise. on the whole it was satisfying and i had a sense of achievement. maybe we should challenge for a longer distance next time.
although with that sense of achievement, those things that were running though my mind last night were still troubling me. maybe those things would keep hunting me until i find solutions for them. some of them sounded insane to me, some, i really had the responsiblity to do my part. and most important, others, **sigh**, i had only myself to blame. really really want to get over it. really really.
although with that sense of achievement, those things that were running though my mind last night were still troubling me. maybe those things would keep hunting me until i find solutions for them. some of them sounded insane to me, some, i really had the responsiblity to do my part. and most important, others, **sigh**, i had only myself to blame. really really want to get over it. really really.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Senior camp cum Pohlin's bdae celebration
finally got time to blog. actually i'm a boring person. not realli proficient in writing english. so can only blog when i got something to write. other people i know have been filling up their blogs with photos and diaries from their overseas trips, some even got poems about their daily life alomost everyday and others got a blog as a place to relief themselves. me...like those in the last group, or mostly likely, most prob i just want to find someone to talk but unsuccessful, cos most of my friends busy with things and i dun want to trouble them, so i chose to tok to this thing here... haha... sound so miserable...
aniway i went back for the 4th senior camp in my hall life or should i say my entire life on sat and sunday, not sure whether i should go for the actual one, though the perm i'm looking for now would be the deciding factor. i went back a day early to find yongxiang and co to tok cork the nite b4. we tok quite a lot, although not much with yongxiang, robin and eugene ironically cos they were busy settling camp stuffs. but i got to know shulian and yiling more at least cos they were actually toking to me the most the whole nite, until eleana came up and joined the session. actually the thing that i realise i miss after the session which lasted till 6am in the morning was the breakfast stall at ah fang, which had the real delicious chicken wings ready at 630am, and i forgot about it when i left hall the last time. so the few of us went for it and came back to sleep till 11 something before going for the camp. the camp was fun in general, and i became the oldest at the camp, and yuen ki, not knowing that she would be there until i saw her, became the one from the oldest batch, the one before me. haha. so we became the prominient one and together with robin and the rest going into their finals year became the core group that jokes around anything and everything in the camp. first is the logo for our group, we called ourselves "anything and wateva. don't do it!!!" when the other group called themselves "break free", and the theme for the camp is prison. haha nice. juz wanted something got to do with the drinks. and eleana's unstoppable lame jokes throughout the camp was another highlight. haha. wondering wat would happen to her during the actual camp, and there were others that had caused much laughter as always in camp. not sure whether was it a big miss for those who din went back for the camp. it was fun though. i cant tok much about the games here cause they should be kept as secrets until the actual camp itself. the senior camp ended on sunday at ard 4pm.
last nite the group of us consisting of, me, robin, jeffrey, yixin, shujin, yongxiang, shing yeong, elayne, shuxin, yu chii and xueyu celebrated poh lin's birthday at suntec's kenny rogers. it was her 21st birthday and some of us shared to give her a mp3 player as a present. though it was a birthday celebration, it was also a gathering for some of us to catch up with one another. things were updated and new things were discovered, and there were no shortage of jokes and laughter, of course mainly from jeffrey and robin and others, and me, juz a chair by name and used as some parts of the jokes and cant continue any. haha. juz another boring person around. the dinner ended at ard 10pm before all of us went back.
PS: it was decided during the dinner to give a farewell supper for xueyu before her summer exchange in US next week. it will be at jalan kayu on this friday 11pm. hope everyone will go.
aniway i went back for the 4th senior camp in my hall life or should i say my entire life on sat and sunday, not sure whether i should go for the actual one, though the perm i'm looking for now would be the deciding factor. i went back a day early to find yongxiang and co to tok cork the nite b4. we tok quite a lot, although not much with yongxiang, robin and eugene ironically cos they were busy settling camp stuffs. but i got to know shulian and yiling more at least cos they were actually toking to me the most the whole nite, until eleana came up and joined the session. actually the thing that i realise i miss after the session which lasted till 6am in the morning was the breakfast stall at ah fang, which had the real delicious chicken wings ready at 630am, and i forgot about it when i left hall the last time. so the few of us went for it and came back to sleep till 11 something before going for the camp. the camp was fun in general, and i became the oldest at the camp, and yuen ki, not knowing that she would be there until i saw her, became the one from the oldest batch, the one before me. haha. so we became the prominient one and together with robin and the rest going into their finals year became the core group that jokes around anything and everything in the camp. first is the logo for our group, we called ourselves "anything and wateva. don't do it!!!" when the other group called themselves "break free", and the theme for the camp is prison. haha nice. juz wanted something got to do with the drinks. and eleana's unstoppable lame jokes throughout the camp was another highlight. haha. wondering wat would happen to her during the actual camp, and there were others that had caused much laughter as always in camp. not sure whether was it a big miss for those who din went back for the camp. it was fun though. i cant tok much about the games here cause they should be kept as secrets until the actual camp itself. the senior camp ended on sunday at ard 4pm.
last nite the group of us consisting of, me, robin, jeffrey, yixin, shujin, yongxiang, shing yeong, elayne, shuxin, yu chii and xueyu celebrated poh lin's birthday at suntec's kenny rogers. it was her 21st birthday and some of us shared to give her a mp3 player as a present. though it was a birthday celebration, it was also a gathering for some of us to catch up with one another. things were updated and new things were discovered, and there were no shortage of jokes and laughter, of course mainly from jeffrey and robin and others, and me, juz a chair by name and used as some parts of the jokes and cant continue any. haha. juz another boring person around. the dinner ended at ard 10pm before all of us went back.
PS: it was decided during the dinner to give a farewell supper for xueyu before her summer exchange in US next week. it will be at jalan kayu on this friday 11pm. hope everyone will go.
Friday, June 8, 2007
Results out
results are finally out...and finally, after 16 years of education, i graduated, with a honors of 2nd upper, which although some of friends said that it was expected from me, i never thought of it until it was confirmed and shown in front of me after that click...and that click will be one of the last few clicks that i will make on a NTU website...and also it truly starts the next and toughest phase of my life...
Looking at the grades, i suddenly had a lot of thoughts. i thought back til the days when i stepped into NTU, the start of my tertiary education, and living in hall and joining JCRC, that signalled the start of my vibrant and unforgettable hall life. i was telling yongxiang the feelings, thoughts and experiences that i had since the first day i was entrusted with the JCRC's duties although i didn really tell him in great details. it started with one question that he asked me why he was one of the choices to be recuited as a JCRC member, and above that as one of the top 4, when he knew we had really different personalities. and i thought of telling him what i really been through...and i suddenly thought some of those things that i had said might not have been through the 3 presidents whom i was undered, vincent, adrian and lastly robin's ears...i began to think that it is true that i tend to keep things to myself, and people around me dun really know me much, maybe it was becos of that incident in the past, that's why cant get a gf til now (side-tracking). but i really thought that those things shouldn have been said if they had been meant to be misunderstandings and troublesome thoughts to them. although i didn really know whether in actual fact will they affect them, but i chose to bear with all of them, to prevent making anything worse. but i hope the things i told yongxiang would have cleared some of the things that he had mistaken and questions about me in the past. i dunno how other people think, but i myself dun think i had done my jobs well as a audio visual secretary of the hall, let alone as the vice-president of the hall, because of those thoughts, and maybe that's why i dun really cause and have much influence either as a JCRC member or as a normal friend to people around me. therefore i hope that yongxiang will not follow my footsteps, although i know he wont, and since he had done well for the past one year in my former post.
of course there were fun, joy and laughter i had during the years in JCRC, not saying 16th and 17th JCRC dun have, but the most of those would be during the term as the 18th JCRC member, especially i got myself 2 'daughters', xueyu and yu chii, whom i dunno why but i think they acknowledged me as their 'dad' cos i really looked like one to them (i look like i'm in 30s after all instead of 20s) and they really looked like kids to me. Sorry but no offence to you two, and especially you two have been great and understanding 'daughters', and sometimes had to bear with your 'dad' nonsenses. the 18th JCRC were really a different batch of people which i really thought at that time not only they could make a difference to the hall but also the kind of working experience that i would have with them, which really gave me the decision of not going for the exchange programme in holland offered by the school, of course there were other reasons. But i really like to thank the 18th JCRC members, although there were some misunderstandings and unbearable times, they had given me such a wonderful time during that term. Of course, thanks should also be given to the 16th and 17th JCRC, for helping me to grow and experiencing what is reality in life.
to 16th JCRC: thanks vincent, tianshun, gavin, adrian, henri, kok siong, jerry, margaret, cindy, yuxin, kenny, ching yan and tzer shiuann.
to 17th JCRC: thanks adrian, gavin, weiming, kevin, robin, stella, eugene, gerald, qiaoling, libing, christine, chee yen, keith, peiying and vic.
to 18th JCRC: thanks robin, eugene, xueyu, kevin, shu jin, poh lin, shing yeong, yu chii, elayne, shu xin, nicole, yi xin, wenchuan, nicholas, fabian and guowen.
and also special thanks to 'friends' of the JCRC (you know who you are) for making my life really different and exciting since term of the 18th JCRC and somehow together, you all elected me as the chair of our supper trip outings, given me the chance to keep in contact with all of you after i graduate. THANKS!!!
After all those experiences and friendships you all had given me, i really feel very gan dong and honored to be part of you all, and really THANKS!!!
Looking at the grades, i suddenly had a lot of thoughts. i thought back til the days when i stepped into NTU, the start of my tertiary education, and living in hall and joining JCRC, that signalled the start of my vibrant and unforgettable hall life. i was telling yongxiang the feelings, thoughts and experiences that i had since the first day i was entrusted with the JCRC's duties although i didn really tell him in great details. it started with one question that he asked me why he was one of the choices to be recuited as a JCRC member, and above that as one of the top 4, when he knew we had really different personalities. and i thought of telling him what i really been through...and i suddenly thought some of those things that i had said might not have been through the 3 presidents whom i was undered, vincent, adrian and lastly robin's ears...i began to think that it is true that i tend to keep things to myself, and people around me dun really know me much, maybe it was becos of that incident in the past, that's why cant get a gf til now (side-tracking). but i really thought that those things shouldn have been said if they had been meant to be misunderstandings and troublesome thoughts to them. although i didn really know whether in actual fact will they affect them, but i chose to bear with all of them, to prevent making anything worse. but i hope the things i told yongxiang would have cleared some of the things that he had mistaken and questions about me in the past. i dunno how other people think, but i myself dun think i had done my jobs well as a audio visual secretary of the hall, let alone as the vice-president of the hall, because of those thoughts, and maybe that's why i dun really cause and have much influence either as a JCRC member or as a normal friend to people around me. therefore i hope that yongxiang will not follow my footsteps, although i know he wont, and since he had done well for the past one year in my former post.
of course there were fun, joy and laughter i had during the years in JCRC, not saying 16th and 17th JCRC dun have, but the most of those would be during the term as the 18th JCRC member, especially i got myself 2 'daughters', xueyu and yu chii, whom i dunno why but i think they acknowledged me as their 'dad' cos i really looked like one to them (i look like i'm in 30s after all instead of 20s) and they really looked like kids to me. Sorry but no offence to you two, and especially you two have been great and understanding 'daughters', and sometimes had to bear with your 'dad' nonsenses. the 18th JCRC were really a different batch of people which i really thought at that time not only they could make a difference to the hall but also the kind of working experience that i would have with them, which really gave me the decision of not going for the exchange programme in holland offered by the school, of course there were other reasons. But i really like to thank the 18th JCRC members, although there were some misunderstandings and unbearable times, they had given me such a wonderful time during that term. Of course, thanks should also be given to the 16th and 17th JCRC, for helping me to grow and experiencing what is reality in life.
to 16th JCRC: thanks vincent, tianshun, gavin, adrian, henri, kok siong, jerry, margaret, cindy, yuxin, kenny, ching yan and tzer shiuann.
to 17th JCRC: thanks adrian, gavin, weiming, kevin, robin, stella, eugene, gerald, qiaoling, libing, christine, chee yen, keith, peiying and vic.
to 18th JCRC: thanks robin, eugene, xueyu, kevin, shu jin, poh lin, shing yeong, yu chii, elayne, shu xin, nicole, yi xin, wenchuan, nicholas, fabian and guowen.
and also special thanks to 'friends' of the JCRC (you know who you are) for making my life really different and exciting since term of the 18th JCRC and somehow together, you all elected me as the chair of our supper trip outings, given me the chance to keep in contact with all of you after i graduate. THANKS!!!
After all those experiences and friendships you all had given me, i really feel very gan dong and honored to be part of you all, and really THANKS!!!
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
2nd Posting... haha...
Aloha (hawaiian saying of hello), 2nd time posting... dunno wat to write actually but juz feel like writing something... think i starting to get attach to this... haha... these couple of days have been busy going down for briefings of a part-time job that is going to start this coming friday... however the timing is a concern... 6am-3pm and 3pm to 12am... haiz... how to get to changi airport before 6am and leaving airport after 12am...wonder wonder... and i thought there is transportation allowances due to the timing...and the agency says no... and becos they are actually looking for people that live in the east... haiz... wonder y i still take up the job... haha... maybe becos i'm slacking at home... and finding part-time now while waiting for a perm one will be a good idea... and furthermore someone has done the liasing... think i juz see how it goes... haiz taking cab will be too expensive for me... since i live in jurong east...(wondering...) will definitely find a way... or i think i will juz tell the guy i'm not doing already... is not profitable to me aniway... haha...
actually i was surprised to see xueyu at the briefing... cos i thought she is flying for summer exchange soon... so may not find a part time job right now which she always do during holidays... aniway saw her and actually quite happy... maybe becos of the smile she always try to cheer and plant in everyone's mind... and of course she is my 'daughter'... haha... but i was busy toking to shin ling's 'boyfriend' ( i think... not sure also... correct me if i'm wrong... not sure about his name also...haha... juz a label) that i 'neglected' her. :( . haiz...not sure y i could tok to him for so long... almost the whole briefing time when we were at both places although we only know each other for onli two days... haha... i actually told him about my plans of opening a so called logstics company next time...and he supported my ideas... haha... think this is life... i'm not sure whether my plan will work actually but he actually supported... ha... cant describe how i feel that time... aniway it gives me a drive to continue... but i hope the friends around me can join me if they are interested... haha... no obligation...
aniway was toking about xueyu... yah... was actually feeling a bit bad not toking to her after all... and although she actually 'complained' to me abt it when she meant to be joking... haha... think i should try to tok to her more before she goes for the trip at the end of this month to L.A...after all when she comes back after that the uni will open for classes again andshe is staying hall already and i most prob will be busy with my work... and today she actually told me something... haha... and i thought it was quite ironic for her if she dun realise... haha... i shall say it here if she dun mind, ' we shall live alone for now for a few years'... haha... and i thought she should have quite a number of suitors going for her... haha... at least i have that confidence in her... not like me... haiz... shan say it here... aniway i want to say all the best to her again even i said it in my last blog... Best Wishes...
think i will stop here for today...not much to write about now other than a job offered by my dad's friend to be an apprentice under him or a ship, doing electrical and automation... so may go overseas on ship if got chances...haha... but considering for part-time first... 80-100 bucks per day...quite alright... but not exactly my field... but may consider to be their mechanical eng for ships if i want to be considered doing full- time....hmmm...
think i should stop now...cya...
actually i was surprised to see xueyu at the briefing... cos i thought she is flying for summer exchange soon... so may not find a part time job right now which she always do during holidays... aniway saw her and actually quite happy... maybe becos of the smile she always try to cheer and plant in everyone's mind... and of course she is my 'daughter'... haha... but i was busy toking to shin ling's 'boyfriend' ( i think... not sure also... correct me if i'm wrong... not sure about his name also...haha... juz a label) that i 'neglected' her. :( . haiz...not sure y i could tok to him for so long... almost the whole briefing time when we were at both places although we only know each other for onli two days... haha... i actually told him about my plans of opening a so called logstics company next time...and he supported my ideas... haha... think this is life... i'm not sure whether my plan will work actually but he actually supported... ha... cant describe how i feel that time... aniway it gives me a drive to continue... but i hope the friends around me can join me if they are interested... haha... no obligation...
aniway was toking about xueyu... yah... was actually feeling a bit bad not toking to her after all... and although she actually 'complained' to me abt it when she meant to be joking... haha... think i should try to tok to her more before she goes for the trip at the end of this month to L.A...after all when she comes back after that the uni will open for classes again andshe is staying hall already and i most prob will be busy with my work... and today she actually told me something... haha... and i thought it was quite ironic for her if she dun realise... haha... i shall say it here if she dun mind, ' we shall live alone for now for a few years'... haha... and i thought she should have quite a number of suitors going for her... haha... at least i have that confidence in her... not like me... haiz... shan say it here... aniway i want to say all the best to her again even i said it in my last blog... Best Wishes...
think i will stop here for today...not much to write about now other than a job offered by my dad's friend to be an apprentice under him or a ship, doing electrical and automation... so may go overseas on ship if got chances...haha... but considering for part-time first... 80-100 bucks per day...quite alright... but not exactly my field... but may consider to be their mechanical eng for ships if i want to be considered doing full- time....hmmm...
think i should stop now...cya...
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Supper cum xueyu's birthday
hello....haha...my first ever blog....and first ever composition about me...was feeling quite bored at home these few weeks after exams...and still finding a perm job...so decided to write something to kill time...haha...when the rest are having ia, pa, eid, special sem, and holidays abroad when i have no money...
actually juz woke up from last nite's supper trip... after all the driving around and the day before's driving...but it was all worth it... it was the first supper i organised as a chair of the supper trip group...dunno how i was elected though...i not sure how the rest think but i thought it was quite bad with the organising part... alot of last minute changes and causing some inconvinence to everyone...hope everyone dun mind...next time will be better...most prob the place will be either chomp chomp, jln kayu or simpang bedok...but the best is go to bukit timah...near beauty world...haha...becos near my house haha...no lah...got good food also...
further more it was xueyu's birthday, though we celebrated after 12am, belated should be...haha...hope u had a great time...and haha...the crocs shoes realli look nice on u...when i was thinking whether it suits u while buying...haha...have a great 21st birthday...though u dun look like one...haha...but i wont wish u guai gao zhang da....as a papa if u rememeber, cum friend... wish u all the best in everything u do and look forward to the furture...
for those who din come for the supper...hope u come next time...think the supper can be more lively if u all around...of course not saying last nite is not lively...but i wish more people can join us if possible...most prob this is an additional time when we can still meet out after uni time...
last of all...thanks all those who came...especally to those new addition to the orginal group...thanks robin, eugene and denise, jeffrey and yixin, shujin, junhao, yong xiang, fabian, melvin, poh lin, elayne, shuxin, shi jin and eleana, and especially xueyu... and i hope this can be continued...of course not having me organising everytime...haha... u all can take the initiative if u want to have one...or other suggestions of outings and stuffs...see you all next time...thanks again...
PS: and shijin...stop spelling my name wrongly in your blog...haha...and i wont say that thing now in this first blog...haha...see my mood first...and dun u spread(this is in a serious manner)...haha...
actually juz woke up from last nite's supper trip... after all the driving around and the day before's driving...but it was all worth it... it was the first supper i organised as a chair of the supper trip group...dunno how i was elected though...i not sure how the rest think but i thought it was quite bad with the organising part... alot of last minute changes and causing some inconvinence to everyone...hope everyone dun mind...next time will be better...most prob the place will be either chomp chomp, jln kayu or simpang bedok...but the best is go to bukit timah...near beauty world...haha...becos near my house haha...no lah...got good food also...
further more it was xueyu's birthday, though we celebrated after 12am, belated should be...haha...hope u had a great time...and haha...the crocs shoes realli look nice on u...when i was thinking whether it suits u while buying...haha...have a great 21st birthday...though u dun look like one...haha...but i wont wish u guai gao zhang da....as a papa if u rememeber, cum friend... wish u all the best in everything u do and look forward to the furture...
for those who din come for the supper...hope u come next time...think the supper can be more lively if u all around...of course not saying last nite is not lively...but i wish more people can join us if possible...most prob this is an additional time when we can still meet out after uni time...
last of all...thanks all those who came...especally to those new addition to the orginal group...thanks robin, eugene and denise, jeffrey and yixin, shujin, junhao, yong xiang, fabian, melvin, poh lin, elayne, shuxin, shi jin and eleana, and especially xueyu... and i hope this can be continued...of course not having me organising everytime...haha... u all can take the initiative if u want to have one...or other suggestions of outings and stuffs...see you all next time...thanks again...
PS: and shijin...stop spelling my name wrongly in your blog...haha...and i wont say that thing now in this first blog...haha...see my mood first...and dun u spread(this is in a serious manner)...haha...
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