The Choice

This is the critical moment of my life.
This is the moment that I have to make this critical choice.
Actually I have done this morning when I called the company.

When the rest of my fellow batch people got employed in their respective company, I'm right here considering, or should I say considered to do something different from I have done from my past 16 years of education, from the career that I had been considering for the, hmm..., almost 25 years of life, since my birthday is coming on Wednesday. And I have to make this decision at this time of the year. And I know if I go according to my decision, is go to be a hard time for me, when I'm sure the rest of my friends will at least have a stable job.

The burden my mum told me this afternoon that she has been bearing, I wondered how she had been carrying all these years, and it actually made me regreted a bit why did I choose to call the company this morning and decide to choose the harder path, when I think my family seriously need the help I can provide since I graduated in July, especially my mum. I did sob a bit, but I turned away from my mum before my tears dropped.

However, since I made a choice, I think I have to stick with it and go on. My mum did give her consent and I really have to work hard for the 16 years I think I have wasted. I really hope I can do it.